Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Weakness

This is the first time you are showing your temper towards me
You were telling me very seriously you don't like the way I'm learning as what u've said
I am so frustrated today
very unhappy
feeling very uncomfortable
Heart like sick
But I do not know how to express
many things cross my mind
Suddenly I feel very strange to you
I think actually you hate me so much
And yet now I only I realized the truth
Suddenly I feel everything happened before is just a dream
bUt the nightmare had just begun

Ya I admit
This is truly my weakness and also my fault
I guess I know What I should do the next
Thank you

and I hate Todae ~

Monday, September 19, 2011

tired

I am awfully tired
both physically and mentally
feel like sleeping and do not want to wake up anymore
too much pain in my heart

Saturday, September 10, 2011

how?

You purposely is it ??
you noe how hard I tried??
I'm having war with myself evry seconds ..
send the wrong msg ?wht is this shit ?!
I just get my tears stop
wtf
stay sweet vf ur dar far away from me pls
pls
what the fcking shit
become friend is just all nonsense you know that
I cant
sry
so sry for that
how? wht to do now ?
cant get thru
where is my frds ?
i need you all
im not okie



focus?

I want to say I can't focus !
I can't forget !
I can't forgo !
What the hell you want me to tell you ?
Tell you can we be tgt like las sem ?
WHat the fck u are saying you know already ?
WHat the shit you ask me to focus study ?
What the shit is all these going on ?
I dont wan to tell you and endure everthg myself is juz because I dont wan the thg happen like now!
You dont have to chg ! dont hav to improve !
Cz i just love you no matter how !
YES I still Love you ! so HOw? sO what now ?
your Mom is right ! ur FAmily is all right !
I like you ! I love you !
So what now ?!
Damn !
What is it now?
I just noe to cry !
sorry that was just a mistake u saw my tears and saying those nonsense to me !
Ass ! you noe !
Im aint the superwomen u said !
Im just a HUMAN !
A HUMAN !
tell me! how to make it through ?!
I dont want to lost all this
can't you und me just a little bit??
I need your love ! Isn't ur sympathy !
SLAP ME !
Tuesday hvt come and Im like SHIT now !